Sweet Desperation

So i have realized something very vital today as I lay in bed sick ,

that I heart Disney movies alot.



I dont think they will ever get old for me or I too old for them.



whenever I hear the first musical , they just instantly make me feel better, instantly my worries are gone.



its a great feeling, no wonder disney makes millions.


So in other news, I was thinking as I laid in bed for most of the afternoon that I have really grown as a person in the last year. (not just width )

in the last year I have been dating the most gorgeous boy in the world, who saves me from going insane from selling automotive parts to old men day after day in a cubicle that makes me slightly want to kill myself.
Since dating him, I have conviently become a squater in his 3 bedroom apartment, with his two other roomies whom I love as well. we have developed a beautiful little community here. where I have been elected the one and only bathroom cleaner. though me and the stu as i like to call him, are planning to find our own place in the spring time. so pretty much I am hibernating here for the winter....booyah.

besides that I have developed several new hobbies (this blogging thing included) I have developed a taste for wine, and have read quite a bit about the pros and cons, ins and outs of that fine industry. (yellow tail pinot grizio is amazing)

I have also developed a love of cooking, which at the moment life is not allowing sufficient time for that lil endeavor though i hope to start that back up again after this weeks camping trip with a vengence.

other than that i include applying for better jobs and worrying about getting laid off in winter due to the slow season up there with my hobbies, you wouldnt believe how much time that takes up . or the space in my brain for that matter.


Pretty much just waiting for october with a fiery passion so I can once again hibernate, save and actually have money. summers really love the visa... *sigh*

if anyone out there is reading... do you have budget saving tips? I would love to hear em.

Well..... I guess this what people are talking about

a blogggggg....

rolls off the tongue well. I dont know how much I will get out of this , as far as creativity goes, maybe its just to keep me sane as I fight to control the anxiety filled life

I'm not amazing, and I dont expect anyone except for my saint of a boyfriend to read it, since hes pretty much the only one who knows that I even enrolled myself in such an activity.... somethings you just keep to yourself. especially if you need to complain .

so thissss is my first . and thats all I have to really say

my weekend was long and family filled, boyfriends brother got married. It was pretty ritzy, probablyt cost alot too.... and I didnt look too shabby in the 120 dollar dress I bought , that has now made me so broke, the only thing I will have for entertainment for the week is Disc 1 of Gilmore girls, and the book the Tao of Pooh. funorama....

I guess thats what they mean by the pains of beauty....


oh well. I think I'll go watch some carol burnett on youtube, for awhile.